So far, the pregnancy has been really cruisey compared to my first one. I was violently ill for most of my first pregnancy and in a great deal of physical pain for the rest.
This time around I have had nothing to complain about - until now.
I took a good look at my diet and whilst it has not been great, it is not too bad. I am not eating a lot of junk and am not eating anything much that is inflammatory (i.e. wheat, gluten for me).
I am having my Mi Essence Superfoods with loads of gut flora every day for breakfast with coconut water, coconut milk chia seeds, banana and berries and a whole bunch of good stuff.
So diet is not the issue really. I am eating well, varied and taking all the right supplements for pregnancy plus I am not having anything that would set off a depressive episode (for me).
So I decided that my diet is okay, I could eat smaller meals more often and snack on fruits and nuts which I have started doing.
This will keep the blood sugar stable and stop the crying jags caused by hunger.
Over the years, I have become an expert at managing my own body regarding this, through herbs, diet and good quality supplementation as well as lifestyle factors (like learning to say no, staying away from toxic or negative people, giving myself Me Time etc).
(I have written about this a lot on my blog too â click âAnxietyâ or search it in the search box above for more info).
All that being said, about a week ago I started to notice a real shift in how I was feeling; not stressed out which is my usual deal but really down in the dumps, almost sad and despairing.
It culminated in a full blown Mental Health Day being called yesterday. I locked myself in my room, watched movies in my bed. I could not bring myself to do anything else.
The day was punctuated with moments of flaring psychotic rage where I wanted to tell everyone in my life to â¦ well, you knowâ¦ and severe crying jags where I felt totally alone, severely depressed and completely helpless.
Knowing myself and my body the way that I do I knew that there was only one thing happening and that was hormones. I also knew I needed to get onto it and fast!
You cannot raise a toddler, run a company (with 5 businesses within it) and be pregnant whilst swinging between wanting to punch someoneâs lights out and wishing you could stick your head in an oven.
So - just what type of help is there for this type of hormonal situation?
Here is my Mental Health Day Checklist :-)
1. Look at Diet
2. Increase Water Intake
3. Get Thee to a Naturopath or Other Practitioner PRONTO!
5. Time Outs and Talking
After sharing an article recently about a 42 year old woman who drank up to 3L of water a day and seeing the difference in her physical appearance, I have committed myself to at least 2L per day for the same reason.
(LOL - I am SO vain now that I am getting older!)
Water will hydrate your body's cells and so much more. Without adequate water, your muscles will tense, your mind will fog and your moods will dip.
So, STOP! And drink a glass of water - NOW!
My moods were swinging psychotically. One minute I am totally enraged, ready to cut everyone off around me, seeing everyone as the enemy and ready to put a match to my entire life. The next minute I am sobbing uncontrollably, feeling totally alone and isolated, believing I am a terrible mother and that my (soon to be) two children are better off without me.
Yes, it got that bad. Yesterday was not a very good day for me.
Today however I am firmly able to tell myself
Itâs just hormonal!
and I can go and seek help.
That is the point.
I now KNOW its hormones, I KNOW I am sometimes susceptible to depressive symptoms during and after pregnancy. I KNOW that there ARE things that CAN be done.
I also know that one must ASK for help.
Was it hard to get out of bed today and drag my teary self around to clinic after clinic begging for immediate help?
Yes of course it was!
Would I rather curl up and cry myself to sleep every day for the rest of my life right now instead of dealing with my team and my clients? Totally!
Do I want to run away and forget everyone and everything and just go and be a hermit somewhere? For sure!
Can I do those things? No.
Are these feelings real? No.
Do I need to sit in them and FEEL them over and over? No.
There is help available.
You. Have. To. Seek. Help. To Find It.
So, whilst I am sitting here typing this out yet another crying jag is coming on but you know what? That is OK. I know what it is, where it is coming from and I have a PLAN in place to deal with it. RIGHT NOW.
If you are a bit like me and susceptible to these types of hormonal âepisodesâ (love that word!) then you too need to put a PLAN into place and action it when things start to take a turn for the worst for you. Donât talk yourself into believing itâs all peachy and that youâll be fine! If you have a demonstrated history of struggling with moods, hormones or mental health, you need a PLAN and you need a SUPPORT TEAM.
Make a plan; action the plan when you need to. That way you are in safe hands â no matter how bad you may get to feeling. Trust me - I know it can get badâ¦ and I know just how you feel.
It CAN get better.
There is help.
You donât have to take drugs â unless you want to.
Drop me a line below if you need help or suggestions for practitioners in your area.
Us Mums need to stick together in times like this!
Love and hormonally teary hugs,
I run a very fast growing company with 5 different brands. I am a super busy woman and I also have a very active 3 year old. I am also currently living on my own most of the time. I do not have time to let these hormonal crying jags grind my entire life to a halt.
I have to get it sorted and get back in the saddle.
That being said, yesterday I was beside myself and totally and utterly useless to anyone in anyway.
I knew if I did anything, spoke to anyone or tried to do any work that I would lose it completely and drop my bundle.
So I gave myself a Time Out and hid away for the day. Did it help? Yes! I feel much better today though still not 100%.
If you need a break make sure that you take it.
If you feel seriously down, even if you think it might hormonal just call someone and say
I know this is probably just hormones but I feel like shit.
Can I talk it over with you?
Now, when I say this, this is because I do not go to a GP for anything anymore. Reason being, particularly now, is that if I walked into any GPâs office all puffy eyed and red faced from yet another crying jag, they would likely say to me âthe only optionâ is to take anti-depressant medication.
After spending over 3 months getting over the withdrawal âsyndromeâ from taking Pristiq 2 years ago, I will never again go onto anti-depressant medication.
Reason being is that ALL illness in the body is caused by a lack of adequate nutrition â could be a series of vitamins I need to increase, or more food and water or more sun. Who knows? But I believe in finding out not just masking symptoms with drugs. Anti-depressant medication will not help me right now in a longer term sense and it will only serve to mask the symptoms in the short term â that is not what I want.
So I did the rounds. I went to every naturopathy and acupuncture clinic in the area (there are a quite a few) and asked for immediate help.
The Starflower Clinic in Leura was able to assist me and the lovely Naturopath there is making up herbs and homeopathy for me right now as we speak. She noticed I was very red and flushed and immediately said
Looks like your thyroid has been having a party and has gone a bit hyper
She is right. This happened to me last time I was pregnant though I did not know it. I was on a whole bunch of medication so it did not become as much of an issue for me.
Next thing I will do is book in for some acupuncture once per week to keep everything on an even keel and stay on top of any more changes in my body / mind.
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